Our SGA Executive meeting today felt like something out of a bad high school melodrama. And I don't really feel that it accomplished everything for which it was purposed. Bashing behind others backs, childish obstinance...I left feeling very frustrated.
But did I say anything during the meeting?
No.
I didn't.
Why didn't I?
Because I'm just as bad as everyone else.
I fall under the other polar opposite; when stuff happens, I know what I need to say, but instead, I become very wishy-washy and do anything I can to avoid confrontation.
As Christians, we are called to keep one another accountable; at the same time, we are also called to encourage. I guess what I'm saying is that there is a tactful way to do everything. And failing to act isn't a proper response either.
Again, I really believe that our meeting, though it did remind us of our responsiblity of accountability, did little more than increase the chasm amidst members of our group, both on personal and group-oriented levels. And now I feel the need to rectify the situation, but I am at a complete loss concerning the pathway. Theoretically, I need to simply talk to each one of them individually; and while I am a Developer and Restorative (thank you StrengthsQuest...), as I earlier mentioned, confrontation is not one of my strong suits. Hence my high Harmony rating. [Gah, ever since NSLC, I've been thinking in terms of StrengthsQuest traits. Forgive me.]
So, I find myself at a Pauline, Romans 7 crux. Am I going to do the good that I know to do?
I hope so.
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2 comments:
robert! you have blogger! that is great!
it is good to hear your struggle. while the meeting was unsettling it was intended to be just that. because some things have just gone on or not gone on for long enough. it is always difficult to bring deep issues to the surface.
prayers for you.
yea man, i know what you mean, and struggling with doing the right thing goes on forever! keep doing the right thing man!
love ya!
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